There's something so restricting about having no money. I think Shyboy wants his first time to be special, so I'd like nothing more than to hire us a room in a hotel for in two weeks time, somewhere romantic like scottland or northumbria, so we could go for long walks along beaches and visit castles and new cities and have a romantic meal out, then go back to our luxurious hotel room and finally comsumate our feelings. It sounds so romantic, and I can't help but feel that he is waiting til it feels special. But how can it be special if we are just at home, in our bedrooms, surrounded by our every day lives? I want this to be good for him, memorable for all the right reasons. If I only had money I really would arrange me and him a little mini break. It's something I could do in the future but not for a good few months, and if I haven't shagged him by then I think I was will have died from anticipation.
Maybe I need to show him a slightly risque movie to get him in the mood, not porn but a movie mostly about sex? I wonder if he's seen the rocky horrow show... whenever we watch something on tv where people end up having sex I hope it will give him ideas but it dosent seem to.
If I could figure out his reasons for saying "wait." ... are they shyness and fear, or is he waiting for something specific, like when we've been dating two months, or when he loves me? Is there anything I can do? Maybe I'm not being patient enough with him, maybe I should just learn to wait. But It's been so so so long since I got laid! Nearly 3 months! I'm dying of frustration here!
The first guy I slept with, I think we did wait quite a few months, maybe four months, but we were teenagers, not adults. Shyboy and I are both adults... we should be mature enough to deal with sex. Blah. Well, much as I do just want to have some fun, I'll carry on waiting for him. Definately going to try again with bolder wandering hands next time we end up on his bed though.