Today we decided to try and see how well me and him fit on my tiny single bed. Trying to squeeze on and make out at the same time caused him to end up on top of me, my legs spread, him digging his hard on right where it felt so good... We must have spent half an hour lying there kissing, with him on top of me... I was so horny I nearly exploded! I like to think little steps of progress like this are good... get him used to the idea of being in the misssionary position but with clothes, making the same movements with his hips, and pretty soon he''ll realise it wouldnt make much difference for us to be naked, except it would feel even better.
But well....I love him (I almost told him today, and yesterday too, but something is making me hold back from saying it yet. Maybe I want to be sure, maybe I'm waiting til there's a chance he might be able to say it back, who knows?) and I'll continue to wait for him. We do seem to spend every evening making out these days, mostly at his insistence, so I think I'm getting him more and more horny.
Talked to A certain Someone the other day and he said he reckons as soon as me and Shyboy do sleep together, shyboy wont be able to get enough of me and will want sex more often than me, if that's possible ! It's a nice thought.
Sometimes Im curled up beside shyboy, listening to his heartbeat, and his arms are around me, and I think "one day, not too far from now, I'll be your first." and knowing that special moment is almost certain to happen makes me relax more, makes me happy to take it slow, knowing someday we will go all the way.