Well, Geekboy just tried to seduce me. I know I should be flattered, seeing as I do find him pretty sexy, but something about him makes me nervous. Maybe it's his weird mix of arrogance combined with self deprecation; at one and the same time, he believes that no women fancy him, and yet that he's irresistable to them and no woman could turn him down, and that he's some kind of God in terms of looks. He's not. He's okay, but not stunning. :-/

I went downstairs today to get a glass of water and he was sitting there, all packed up for his holiday waiting to leave. We chatted civilly for a bit, but apparently my wearing a silky black dressing gown with nothing else under it had tempted him, and he asked me to come sit on his knee. I laughed it off, but he scooted over to my sofa and snuggled up with me, then started to kiss me. I wasn't exactly objecting, because hey, a girl needs attention, but he's Catboy's best friend, which always makes it seem a little wrong, and whenever Geekboy seduces me I get the impression it's because there is no one else available.

He's also paranoid about his ex who lives with us ever noticing his attempts to seduce me (guess he still hopes they'll get back together one day) so he is always "shhhh"-ing me, something I find highly patronising and frustrating. Im a vocal girl by nature. If he can't handle it, he shouldnt try it on with me. It's not like I was shouting "OH MY GOD, MORE!" It was just that when we were standing at the bottom of the stairs, discussing why we had never dated, he got alarmed that his ex girlfriend, asleep on the 3rd floor, might hear our discussion *rolls eyes* as CertainPerson will testify, I havent exactly got the worlds most booming voice - I sound quite girly and squeaky.

Anyway, he was kissing me, and I was kinda enjoying it, but I knew he was due to go on holiday in ten minutes, and I knew he just wanted a quick fumble, which would have left me quite confused, so although I didnt stop him running his hands over my breasts through the silk, I did laugh and shyly stop him when he suggested a quickie right then and there on the sofa (and what would he think if his ex walked in on that, hrm?) If he made me feel more valued, respected, and as if he was after me, rather than the nearest available girl, maybe I'd have been more convinced, but either way I wasnt. He asked why I haven't come and sneaked into his room, (following a drunken conversation a few weeks ago where he told me I was free to anytime) and I said, "well you know, I get shy.". Then he said he'd wanted to sneak into my room as soon as Catboy left two weeks ago, but he could see I was too upset. Darn right I was! If he'd tried that I would have kicked his ass right out of there and made sure he knew exactly what was what, seeing as I was in floods of tears that night over me and Catboy deciding not to see each other anymore.

Seeing me liking other men seems to be what provokes him into wanting me, as I was talking about Shyboy just before Geekboy leaped on me this morning. See, I'd made up my mind that I quite like Shyboy. Me and him met two years ago when he was wandering round Iceboy's flat in just a dressing gown. Him and Iceboy lived together that year, then Iceboy moved in with me the year after, and Shyboy is moving in with us in September. Anyway, he flirted with me, paid lot's of attention to me, and made me laugh, plus he had a sexy irish accent, was nice and tall, and a geek, which always gets me going. ;D

Me and Shyboy used to flirt whenever I went round to his place but I was in a relationship at the time and thought nothing of it. Then when Iceboy moved in with me, Shyboy used to come and visit both of us at this house. I was single by this point and made sure Shyboy knew about it, and over a monopoly game tensions rose (dont ask!), and we kept up the secrecy until valentines day, when I spent three weeks looking for the perfect card (not too rude, jokey but not crude, cute but not soppy. Got him one in the end that said "I like you soooo much" with a cute little stick figure on it) and sent it to him.

One way or another, he reacted badly to the card (or so I thought) so when I met Catboy half a week later, I had moved on. Unfortunately when me and Catboy were on our seccond date that sunday Shyboy turned up with flowers for me that he'd rode 90-something miles to deliver on his bike. I told him I was casually dating Catboy, but he still sent me chocolates through the post, and announced his intention to "court" me, all of which was sweet and romantic as hell, but his timing sucked.

I told him I couldnt date him because I was dating Catboy, (Shyboy isnt exactly the type that would want to date someone who was dating someone else, even if I could keep myself untangled in such a situation.) and he backed off. We've spent time together as friends since, and though I felt I owed my first loyalties to Catboy, I would have been with Shyboy by now if his timing had been better and he'd made his feelings clear when he got the valentine. I'm still excpetionally fond of him, not to mention fancying his pants off, so I'm sort of hoping he's still interested.

I came to the conclusion yesterday that when he visits in two weeks I definately want to take a shot at him - he's very sweet and innocent so I'll have to move slowly - not sure he's even been kissed! :-/
But he's always treated me nicely, and I've always melted when I've heard his accent, so I'm gonna go for it, as long as he's still interested! I'll find a way to let him know I'm totally single now, and let the games begin anew. The thing is, when I told Geekboy all these conclusions, thats when he leaped on me.

Anyway, back to the leaping.
Geekboy kept pawing me and it was getting to be less of a turn on and more like I was just being used. He said I should visit him in London, where he's moving in a few weeks, but I know he fancies my sister more, and he knows if I was anywhere near London it would be to see Catboy. Not the best scenario, being each others 3rd best option, or something. In the end he sent me off to get dressed because I was "too tempting" in my dressing gown, and I sauntered off. I get the impression he's hoping we'll end up in bed together again before he moves out in a months time. I'm not sure how I feel about that. Shy, nervous, and uncertain, I guess. If I'm drunk, that probably wont matter, but I shouldnt have to be drunk to go to bed with a guy!

Other than that, nice to be wanted, nice when he guided my hand to show me exactly what effect I'd had on him, nice to feel desirable when I've just got up, have no makeup on, and my hair is sticking up in all directions. Bit of an ego boost really. Thing is though, liking Shyboy makes me want to be less of a hussy. Makes me want to save myself for him (bit late...). If he's never done any of these things before, least I can do is abstain for a bit so it feels like I'm brand new, even if I'm not. I can hardly say I like him with one breath, and yet sleep with Geekboy before I take another :-/ that would be pretty low of me. I do have standards and morals, liking sex a lot dosent change that.

Anyway, Geekboy has taken himself off on holiday now, and hopefully a situation wont arise again before he moves out where his ex is out of the house, and he remembers where we left off. If it does, I'll have to decide wether I'd like myself very much if I did that while trying to initiate things with Shyboy around the same time. Also I get the impression if Catboy ever finds out I slept with his best friend, Geekboy, he'd be hurt, and okay, I have already slept with Geekboy once so the damage is done, but the more times, the more risk, is the way I see it. Anyway, Geekboy will probably find himself some girl on holiday, and I'll be safe. Funny that, I'm horny as hell but his attentions are still partly unwanted. I must have a spine after all. ;) I know he's gone away grinning just because he got to kiss me and press himself up against me, and run his fingertips over my dressing gown to feel my curves, and that's an incredible ego boost, but I don't feel the need to take it any furthur. :))