Toys

Well, a certain friend of mine (He knows who he is ) wound me up this evening in a good way...made me think the most dirty thoughts about him that me and my "toys" couldn't resist finishing what he started with his words ... I don't rely on sex toys much, but every now and again I'll get them out for a treat.

While vibrators give a very nice sensation, they don't actually do that much for me. (I've always been a bit embarassed to admit this. All women are meant to be crazy about vibrations right?) If I tried to get off on the vibrations alone, I really wouldnt get anywhere. Is that wierd? Am I the only person with a clitoris on the planet who dosent disolve into squeals of ecstacy at the sight of a washing machine on spin cycle? I've always felt very much that my fingers are skilled enough to give my clit all the attention it needs, and are far more supple, yielding and warm than any cold hard and overly large object. Perhaps I need a real-feel-self-heating-precision-point one?

But Dildo's...now...there's a lot of use a girl can put a phallic instrument to without it ever needing to buzz. As long as they are warmed up first (cold is never gonna do it for me, I'm afraid!) dildo's can be great fun. I have a need for penetration that just isn't satisfied by slipping one of my fingers in, I need something big and hard, and thats where my faithful favourite comes in. Originally an anne summers novelty which was attached to a bathplug and chain, presumably for watery entertainment (better than reading a book in the bath ) my house bathplug was lost one day, and when we couldnt find it, I removed the toy from the chain and we started using the now innocent bathplug instead.

For a while the Toy stayed neglected in my collection, but came into use when I got frustrated with my other sex toys one day. I'd been bought one by an ex, and well, you know how they get - super-delux-real-feel-bead-filled-multi-fuction-
extra-large-vibrating-ribbed-shaped-to-look-like-a-stegosaurus (I kid you not) - totally over the top, totally uncomfortable, totally over complicated, and I was just thinking "ouch" as I used it for the 3rd time, hoping it would get better with practise, and my eyes fell on the other toys in my draw.

My sister had run off with my fave (yes, eww, I know! Gross. But it had a covering that was meant to feel like skin, so at least she removed that and just used the vibrator inside. I found it one day when I was snooping through her stuff, its discarded outer layer in the same drawer. Not the sort of thing you can confront someone about) which was just the right size, and my only other one was a mini handbag sized device, so the last option was the former bath toy, and it worked like a dream!

It's the perfect legnth and width, and dosent vibrate, and dosent have wierd ribbed bits or things sticking out of it at odd angles (like the rampant rabbit. Again, am I the only girl in the world put off by the fact that the rabbit has a bit that is meant to go up near your ass? My ass is off limits. I have no idea what people find sexual about asses when penetration is involved )

So, yes my fave toy had a bit of use tonight. Ideally it would be an inch or two longer as it's a little short I guess so my fingers have to slip inside me a little to thrust it in and out of me, but then my fingers aren't complaining and neither am I I suppose I use it only once or twice a month - like I said my fingers and my fantasies do me fine the rest of the time - but when I do use it I love to use it a little before I start touching my clitoris and then after I've come I give myself a real good rodgering with it, nice and hard, riding out the last few plateaus of my orgams. I can't really do both at once - not enough hands! And I dont find I benefit much from just leaving it in while I play with my clit, It's only really giving me that thrill when it's moving.

I had another toy once, that went round the guy's cock, and had a raised bit that was aimed at the clit, so if he fucked you with it on, it rubbed against you at the same time. That was another of the vibrating ones. Well, it worked, but it sure as hell didnt look sexy, and it felt a bit fake, you know? Such things can take away the natural elements of sex and just make it all planned and calculated, and the more you are expected to have an orgasm, the harder it is. Also I found I had to hold it in place a lot...not much fun having a hand between the two bodies steadying it...and it only really worked for me in the missionary position. Overall, not something I'd bother with.

I suppose when I first discovered anne summers I was fascinated. I think I went in with a friend and we rushed out really soon, blushing. We'd lied about our age to get in, I remember that much. I'd been using phallic objects for most of my sexual life, but they'd been convieniently shaped every day objects, not specially designed sex toys...the idea of actually buying something just to pleasure myself with was both appealing and yet somehow over extravagant and too honest. I liked it better when sex was slightly a mystery, something to be a bit shy about, something to hide from most people. To be proud of ones vibrator, to advertise ones dildo, seemed at the time to defeat the point --- bringing it out in the open as an acceptable thing to be doing stopped it feeling naughty to some extent, which was both a shame and a blessing. I know now if even my mother accidently found a vibrator of mine while cleaning or something (If I still lived with her) she'd put it down to "natural impulses" and tell me it was something everyone did... which just dosent sound as sexy does it?

I've always been kinda fascinated with the sex toys for men - the ones that are supposed to give them a blowjob or a handjob, and the blow up dolls...there's something fascinating about the fact that men out there really arent getting enough action and would actually turn to these for comfort. All those sex starved men...where are they? And how come I dont ever meet them? Or are they getting laid regularly but actually want a plastic pair of lips with "real sucking motion"? I've always wonderd wether these things are any good - they certainly dont look very sexy, or real, or as if they would do the job. It's a whole world I can't explore, just as I suppose men will never know what it feels like to have a female orgasm. (do they feel different? I think they must do, in some ways if not essentially. I think even women have different orgasms from other women, and men have different sensations than other men do, and so forth. Maybe it feels different for all of us. Heck, it dosent even really feel the same twice for me. I know I get varying intensities)

Maybe I've rambled too much I know who I'm gonna blame